Life, YouTube, Flowers

Long time no blog!

Although I have not written for a while, the inner journey continues. I had wanted for a long time to try to communicate and interact about the subjects I have addressed here through YouTube. This year, I was happy that the Body & Brain Youtube channel invited me to do a show on motional management. I’m attaching a link here, and I would love to interact with all of you through that show! I feel like when we recognize our likeness and support each other in the process of inner growth and healing, it gives us the strength and courage to keep doing the work. And why do we need to keep doing the work? Because we are transforming into our greatest selves and the more we let our light shine, the more we change this world.

Here’s a clip of my introduction below. I want to design this show so that every other week we can have a Q & A session for the topics discussed. I hope you will participate!


Beyond that, my life continues on with the theme I set for it this year, the theme of “Letting Go”. I have been discovering how to utilize my body to help me let go in many ways and it has been very liberating and rewarding for me. Rewarding, I suppose, because I have tried unsuccessfully for so long to let go on deeper levels, and now it feels I am actually moving in the direction that I want to go.

I have found that letting go requires being brave, trusting myself and forgiving myself. It requires believing in the truth of my soul, more than the lies that my ego tries to tell me. Straightening my spine tall in front of those lies definitely requires some grit. I have found that challenging life experiences that don’t kill us are the best to cultivate such grit 🙂

As painful as it can be, the human journey is beautiful. We do our best to cultivate ourselves each day and suddenly we find our flower is blossoming.

We humans are the multi-colored flowers of this tree of life on Earth. Let’s share our fragrance far and wide.

Trust

As an adoptee, trust is a huge giant issue for me. It shows up in every single aspect of my life. I have come to discover “trust issues” rearing their ugly head with everything from myself, to others, to my body, to my environment, to the world.

In her most recent comment on Healing Tree, Yvonne posed the question, “How can I trust myself?” That’s a very good question, and not an easy one to answer. I have found that if you try so hard to trust yourself, it’s kind of like staring into a dark hole that just keeps appearing more and more hopeless and impossible, the more you look. The darkness can be enveloping. You cannot find the answer there. Instead, you just keep fighting with your feeling and the feeling keeps growing bigger.

The only thing that we can do in those moments is to use all of our strength to recognize that the darkness is not me. The hopelessness is not me. And the feeling of lack of trust is also not me. This means, it’s not the truth of me. In fact, it’s not the truth at all, it’s just a feeling that I have inside. It’s just a feeling. Feelings are like clouds. They come, they go. They get really black and fierce, then eventually they disperse, and the light of the sun is revealed again. The light of truth. If we are simply patient, if we give it time, if we recognize it for what it really is, the light will always be seen again.

Please recognize that it’s not that you don’t trust yourself, or others, or whatever the untrusting issue at hand may be. It’s just that you have a feeling of lack of trust inside of you. Again, this is just a feeling, this is not who you really are, nor does it have to be your reality. The reality is, you are a bright shining sun and the clouds of distrust are just covering you temporarily.

Try to feel it in your body. Get really familiar with the actual sensations of distrust. Calm your mind and steady your breathing as you examine and observe these sensations in your body. When you do that, you detach yourself from being lost in the stormy clouds, and now you are just observing them with some distance. You can take a good look at your feeling of distrust, and that is when you have made some separation from it. That is very important! It may even be just a momentary separation before you are sucked back into the the whirlwind of darkness that is the feeling of not trusting oneself and one’s surroundings. But, even that moment is powerful for you. Recognize and appreciate it. It’s from that moment that you are on the slow and steady path to gaining some degree of controllability and mastership over the debilitating feeling of self-doubt.

This has been my experience with it. In practicing this, it has lead to a reduced feeling of anxiety inside, less irrational fears, improved relationships with loved ones, more feeling of freedom and happiness, an empowered ability to make healthier choices, and a sense of maturity in overcoming the threatened child within.

And beyond all of that, it has helped me to connect again more quickly and more deeply with my soul – my true essence – which always brings a sense of healing and peace to my heart. It leaves me with a sense of “inner knowing” that there is the me inside who is always with me, always watching me and can never be injured by a lack of trust. In fact, it feels as if this true nature is trust itself, or at least it is a presence that is void of doubt. It is just Beingness.

The work that we have to do is to put in the effort to diligently practice making this separation, to increase the amount of time that we are able to feel our true, pure, original nature. Then we don’t have to try to trust ourselves anymore, because naturally we come to trust that we can handle any feeling, any stormy clouds that come our way. And that is enough.

In simple summary, don’t try to trust yourself. Try to become really aware of the sensations in your body when you are in self-doubt or any untrusting moment. Feel it. Separate from it. And slowly you will realize that the self who is able to do this, is a part of yourself that always has been and always will be existing in a place that is beyond the duality of trust and doubt.

Yvonne, I hope this is helpful for you 🙂

Until A Smile Spreads

Forgiving someone for a wrong that they have done to you is not easy. However, seeing this person and the action with a new perspective is much easier, and a feeling of forgiveness follows automatically. This is something that, with a little bit of willingness and a little bit of work, anyone can do. The beauty is that it’s actually in our own hands. Whenever we take our power back, it feels good. Whenever we decide to see with our big eyes, and not only our small ego-driven ones, it feels like healing.

From time to time I color in the coloring book that was put out by Manwol Dae Sunsa Nim, the beloved spiritual leader of Sun Tao, entitled, “Healing Hearts, A Coloring Book for Letting Go and Starting Over.”

Not only are the abstract images that she has created for us to color very beautiful, but the messages she invites us to meditate on as we color are filled with simple and yet profound wisdom. Today I would like to share one of my favorites. It’s called: I’ll Forgive You…Until a Smile Spreads.

Not everyone is meant to be exactly like you. Acknowledge that the other person is different from you.

Don’t try to force them to fit standards you have created, thinking, ‘You must be this kind of person.’ Just see them for who they are. Acknowledge that they are an imperfect human being who can sometimes make mistakes, who is sometimes controlled by emotions and desires. There are no perfect people in this world, are there?

After you let go of all your hatred and resentment, peace and compassion will fill your heart, and a gentle smile will spread across your face. It would be great if you could even bless that person, enabling them to live a life for healing others.

While coloring, repeat to yourself, ‘ I’ll forgive you,’ as you exhale until a smile spreads from your heart to your face.

Even for those of you who cannot see the picture in the book to color, I still think it is a powerful message that could be applied to anyone. You may want to draw or color your own picture, or simply sit quietly and breathe and practice the art of forgiveness.

Awakening the Spirit

I had the honor of being interviewed by Dr. Reed Tuckson on his new podcast show, “Dr. Reed Decided to Live 120 Years”.

I had not known Dr. Reed previously, so I was surprised to discover that he is such an incredibly lovely and warm-hearted person! Our short 40 min talk was truly joyful for me. As the conversation went on, I could really feel his spirit, his passion and his light flowing from his being and it made my own heart come alive.

So, I thought I’d share the interview here!

Also, here’s a link to know more about Dr. Reed and the wonderful work he’s doing for the health of humanity…

https://www.tucksonhealthconnections.com/

I am so grateful to all the beautiful souls across the Earth who are sharing their love and light in so many ways! I hope that you enjoy Dr. Reed as much as I have, and if you’d like to see more of his podcasts you can continue to check them out on braineducationtv.com!

Bath Contemplation

Today I took the best bath ever!

Truly. It was burning hot ~ just the way I like it. I added some lavender bath salts that were given to me with love. Lights off – only the gray daylight shining in. I cracked the window open, which cooled things down a bit, but I really wanted to hear the sound of the rain. The sound was so healing and so heavenly, and it immediately put my mind at ease. I did some BHP and EFT and gave myself positive messages. I thought to myself at one point that this was literally a $1000 bath 🙂

In this most comfortable setting, I contemplated about choosing, story-making, victim consciousness and master consciousness. I realized that the reason why story-making is a problem, is that we always do it from our victimized consciousness. We always make stories that hurt us and turn us into victims, creating enemies and a lot of blaming, judging, complaining mind. Inside of this mind set, we get ever darker and more negative…heavy…miserable. However! What if we could just turn it around and instead of declaring story-making as a bad thing, we could just use it as a tool from our master consciousness? A story that heals us and empowers us is a like medicine for our brain. If that story helps us to produce positive, happy hormones, then what a great story it is! Since we are the creators of our lives, we are the ones who get to choose it as our new truth, replacing the old poisonous story. Isn’t this basically what positive affirmations are?

In the “I’ve Decided to Live 120 years Book,” Ilchi Lee talks about becoming the ‘victimizer’. Basically, he says that when you feel like a victim you can never solve anything. You can never change the condition of your brain and your stuck in a negative circumstance, wanting/needing somebody or something outside of you to change in order for you to feel better. He says that the only way out of this is to somehow make yourself the ‘victimizer,’ and then at least you can change yourself. You take your power back.

At first this can be hard to understand, but my interpretation of this is that it’s about taking ownership. Like this: If we have a lot of negative thoughts about ourselves, whether it be related to what other people did or didn’t do to us, or our issues with our health condition, success, relationships…whatever….What if we just turn it around and think, “Somehow, I chose this. Somehow, I wanted it to be this way. Even if it’s not conscious, on an unconscious Soul-level, I wanted this situation in my life so that I can grow in some way.” Because after all, every single circumstance gives us the opportunity to be stronger, more self-loving, more wise and more free…doesn’t it? Thus the saying ‘what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.’

Try this: Look at all the things that are bothering you in this very moment, and begin to tell yourself, “I wanted it to be this way. Somehow I chose this. My Soul chose it. It’s not what has happened to me, but it is what I actually wanted to happen” And then feel your body. If you really allow yourself to believe it, you will start to instantly feel lighter and happier. Why? Because you will have shifted your consciousness out of victim-hood where there is absolutely no solution, into a place where you now are actually getting what you want! And we all feel really good when we get what we want 🙂

This is my most productive bath contemplation to date. Liberating your brain from old negative perspectives and stories is worth more than $1000! If you have a chance to try the above exercise and really allow yourself to own everything in your life that you otherwise thought you were a victim of, I’d love to hear how it goes!

And if you have a chance to take a cozy enlightening bath ~ I highly recommend it!

Never Give Up

As I do my practice and live my life, I can see that all of the spiritual principles that I have been learning and trying to apply over the last 19 years are slowly integrating. So, I guess the message is to never give up. It’s a message that we transform slowly over long periods of time, incrementally. This requires a great deal of devotion, sincerity, patience and self-forgiveness.

I think that I always wished in my heart that suddenly one day…boom! I would be fully awake. I think it is probably that wish that left me so frustrated and disappointed with myself so many times. I am learning through living that if we are able to take a good look at all of the desires and expectations that our ego has put onto life, and accept that it was just our own egoic lens that was causing so much suffering, and that life is what it is and that’s ok, that a deeper peace is accessible. And then the power to truly make conscious choices arises. But when we continuously live as the victim of each circumstance, relationship, feeling because things are not working out the way we wanted them to….we are prey to our endless thoughts, emotions and desires and we are powerless.

I have heard Ilchi Lee say that “suddenly one day” comes after a long period of effort and devotion. What I take from that perspective is that there is no “suddenly one day.” Everything in this universe is a fair trade, what we put in is what we get out. Therefore, what is truly important is our devotion. Our endless attention to our growth and transformation, and our willingness to share and apply each truth that blossoms along the way – this is the beauty of the journey. Then, just like the mountain that is made up of many grains of sand, “one day” something great will be born out of our efforts.

Today’s post is one of encouragement. Never give up. Bloom the beautiful flower of your heart.

BETV

Today I want to give a shout out for BETV, a new youtube channel featuring Brain Education!

For those who don’t know, Brain Education is the essence of Body & Brain Yoga and Tai Chi. It is the practice which I have been training in, teaching others and sharing to all of you for the last 19 years. In fact, I joined the Body & Brain center myself back in Waltham, Massachusetts in January 2000, so I am literally celebrating my 19th year anniversary this month! That’s why it’s not an exaggeration to say that I have dedicated nearly half of my life so far to this amazing training method.

Why have I done that?

Well, Brain Education is rich with energy exercises and universal principles that guide us back to who we truly are. It has been incredibly healing and indescribably beautiful for me to meet with that original nature. It has opened my eyes to new perspectives and brought me to expanded levels of consciousness.

Brain Education is about discovering your greatness through becoming the master of your body, brain and life. It has been liberating for me to realize that I am in fact the creator of my life, not the victim, and that there are concrete tools to help me navigate through the chaos of my mind as well as the world around me. Diligent practice has time and again brought me back to a reality that is not ONLY drenched in ego, negativity, selfishness and materialism. A reality where my soul can grow and my spirit can breathe, stretch and shine. I believe that this reality is where we are all meant to live.

And this is just the tip of the ice berg. It’s nearly impossible for me to put it all down in words what Brain Education has done for me and hundreds of fellow practitioners that I have met along this path. This is why I’m so happy that it now has it’s own official youtube station! I look forward to seeing it reach a wider audience online, and pray that it will illuminate more lives with hope, as it has illuminated mine.

One thing that I think is really neat about the station is that it will be hosted by Linda and Gabi, two young women who actually grew up doing Brain Education as children/teenagers. They both have mothers who are long-time practitioners, who introduced them at a young age. I think these bright lovely women have much to share and attest to as now-adults who were once BE Kids.

If you’d like to hop on the BE Good News Train, in a world that can so often bring us down and leave us feeling lost and confused, please check it out and subscribe. My wish is to share every tool that I know to make this Earth a healthier, happier and more peaceful place to live. It starts with each of us (but you already knew that, because I tell you all the time!)

Here’s the link ~Enjoy!

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCoqtKR3DyzMoSaMxqSyrdig

Oh ~ and one more thing….if you check this out you will also find Dr. Reed Tuckson’s Podcast. I have been invited to be interviewed by Dr. Tuckson for this podcast on January 28th. I am not completely sure when it will be aired but the subject will be “How Can I Enhance My Spiritual Life and Well-Being”. Stay Tuned……

People of Light

Happy 2019!

I am very grateful that I had the opportunity to begin my day with deep training. I felt bright light entering my body and stretching out like twists of golden DNA through my arms and legs. I felt that energy was coming down to me from the center of the Universe, reminding me of who I truly am. In my heart, I felt a deep longing that such a light could be born onto this Earth. I was reminded that only the People of Light will create a World of Light.

I am happy to be able to start off the year with such a pure message of light that stirred my soul. Following on the heels of a very up and down 2018, where I shrunk many times and many ways, it is so healing and hopeful to feel myself expanding. And I set a clear intention that 2019 will be a year of letting go, and loving big.

I hope that you all set your intention for 2019 as well. Even if the details are yet to come, I encourage you to have a general focus for yourself this year, and watch how you and life bends to make that intention come into reality.

My training experience this morning reminded me of Ilchi Lee’s message from his Calligraphic Meditation book entitled, “People of Light”. I thought that I would take time to share it with you, in hopes that we all together become people of a brighter light in 2019….a light that chases away the darkness and chaos…until we can see a world that is sparkling with healing, golden light …. The following message reminds us how to become such a person 🙂

People of Light

The seven jewels of light in your body, your chakras, come alive. Delight arises from deep within your mind. Its energy spreads to your whole face, making it bright and cheerful. Your hands float, moving on their own as they do a dance of the soul. O people of light, you are beautiful!

There is no reason to have a cheerful expression on your face. You’re not wearing a cheerful expression because you feel good. You just do it unconditionally.

Let the light in your eyes be bright, peaceful and overflowing with love and confidence. Let it be the greatest light you can create. Control the light of your eyes with the power of your brain.

You can create peace and love in your brain. Emit that peace and love with your whole face. Let your eyes shine with positive energy. Create a light in your eyes and an expression on your face so cheerful that it makes those around you wonder, why is that person so happy?

Straighten your lower back and open your chest. Let all seven chakras open up and gush the energy of infinite life. Make your posture confident, bold and proud.

Plant a beautiful dream in your brain. Create for yourself positive energy, making the light of your eyes gentle and peaceful.

Create good news each and every day. Good news makes good brains. Live always in positive thinking. Positive thoughts create miracles.

There is no hope in despair. There is no hope in conflict. Don’t choose despair or conflict, choose hope in every situation. Hope is a choice.

Those who have hope and those who give hope are beautiful. Life is accompanied by much pain, but it shines in the moment you have hope.

Hope does not make the suffering of life itself disappear, but suffering has meaning when we have hope. Great hope makes even suffering beautiful.

-Ilchi Lee

Letting Go

I have been reading the book “Letting Go: The Pathway of Surrender” by Dr. David Hawkins.  I highly recommend it.

The technique for letting go that he speaks about is very much what we practice in Brain Education Step 2. Versitilizing (making your brain flexible) and Step 3. Refreshing (releasing the negative memories and emotions).

Whenever we hear words such as “releasing” or “letting go”, it often times feels like a very difficult thing to do.  In fact, at the sound of such words, we might even find ourselves grasping on all the more tightly! What I have come to realize is that the more we TRY to release and let go (of our negative thoughts, emotions, habits, beliefs, memories and relationships) the further we push that possibility away.

It’s not about trying.  It’s about increasing your power to observe yourself, without becoming immersed and entangled in the thoughts and emotions that arise.  Observing.  Watching without judgement.  Witnessing them, identifying them very clearly and accurately, but not reacting to them. Very very tricky.

This process takes practice and time.  This is why we continuously work on Brain Education Step 1. Sensitizing – awakening our senses again and again through energy training so that we can have better awareness of ourselves.

We all need self-awareness.  Without it, we might hurt others without realizing it.  We might hurt ourselves. We might make our bodies sick. We might make our Earth sick.

Self-awareness is the beginning of healing.  It is the beginning of changing ourselves from an unconscious person, to a conscious one.

Yes, it can be a tedious process to awaken this sense and yes it might also bring new burdens upon you when you realize about your own habits so clearly as if you are looking into a pristine mirror.  This can be a painful process at times!  But, it is such a necessary process.  So that we can all take ownership of our own bodies, minds and spirits.  So that we can become truly harmonious beings who co-create Earth Peace.

And although it is painful at times, on the other side of that valley, there is freedom.  What more could we ask for?  There is nothing in this world that comes for free.  We must put in the work, and then reap the rewards.

 

Check Yourself! Love Yourself!

Wow~ it’s November already!

Although this has been a bumpy year for me filled with ups and downs (well more like epic crashes and heroic climbs) I don’t want to neglect this moment to do some self-reflection and evaluation on my 2018 goal.  Furthermore, I wanted to remind all of you to do the same!

Have you been focusing on the goal that you set for yourself at the beginning of the year?  How close have you come to achieving it?  What have you learned in the process?  In what way have you developed yourself on the road towards your goal?  How have you fallen short?

This is the practice of evaluating ourselves well so that we can do the 5th and final step of Brain Education: Brain Mastering.

Brain Mastering is about setting a concrete goal in order to manifest our greatest self in daily life, and then working toward it with continuous self-checking and refinement, giving birth to new choices and new actions, again and again, until we achieve our goal.  What happens in this process is Self-Transformation, Life-Transformation and World-Transformation.

Ilchi Lee so often says that what this world needs is human beings who have developed their brains into problem-solving brains.  Then we can really do “Earth Management.”

What does this Earth need?  There can be many answers ~ I encourage you to find your own!  One thing I felt it needed was more love, so I made my 2018 goal to “Love from my Soul – all people in all situations.”

I definitely did NOT achieve that goal yet! Hahaha.  Well, maybe moments of it, but I can hardly say that I am satisfied.  However, that does not mean that this is cause to be disappointed with myself or to blame myself.  This is an opportunity to learn something.

I have definitely learned a lot about myself this year, and I can say with certainty that it’s been a year of great awakenings and clarity in regards to the things inside of me that are blocking that love.  The more I I have been able to look at those things square in the eye, with courage, the less power they have had over me, and the more I feel a great brightness within illuminating on deeper and deeper levels.

This year I spent a lot of time facing: guilt, shame, humiliation, pride, the feeling of lack, desire for recognition, and desire for safety.  These are major players in the game that my ego plays with me.  After identifying all of them, I felt more clarity, more peace and it made space inside to welcome: positive thinking, abundance, the power to give energy to myself, the ability to let go …all of which have lead to a bigger love in my heart.  Not a particular kind of love, just love of self, love of beingness.

And so perfectly, I was recently introduced to the Korean pop band and their international hit song: Love Yourself.  It’s so very sweet ~ have you heard it? I will post the video with subtitles here so that you can understand it’s sweet message 🙂 And the coolest part is that these singers took courses at the Global Cyber University, founded by Ilchi Lee, where they all studied Brain Education.  It’s nice to see them spreading good information on a global scale!!

In conclusion, I want to say:

Let’s never give up seeing ourselves, picking ourselves up, dusting ourselves off and heading towards our goals again again, no matter how difficult life might be, mastering our brains one step at a time.

Let’s love ourselves, all of ourselves, so that we can truly love others with our Souls.  So that we can truly fill this world with Love ~

Let’s spend the remaining month and a half of this year with determination to achieve what we set out to accomplish! It’s never too late!!  Best wishes to all~~~~~~~