More on letting go

After reading Charlene’s comment from my recent “Letting Go” post, I thought of this message by Ilchi Lee.  My teacher’s words resonate deeply for me so I wanted to share them here as well.  Letting go is not easy for any of us.  In my opinion, we let go more easily when we are able to feel the unchanging presence that we can hold onto.  I hope these words shed even more light on the subject.


The Blessings of Life & Death

In the world of the finite body, death is the extinction of life and the end of everything. However, in the infinite world of energy, death is an illusion, and there is nothing but the cycle of life.

The waters of the river of life flow endlessly. No one knows when those waters began. And no one knows when they will end. The waters of that river flow endlessly, and our lives, too, flow on. But just as the waters of a river meet the sea, so too our lives, in the end, will meet an ocean.

People speak of it as the “Ocean of Death.” For those who know energy though, it is the “Ocean of Life.” It is a beautiful sea filled with infinite life energy. Life is not a voyage to the Ocean of Death, but a journey to encounter the Ocean of Life.

When you awaken to the world of energy, you realize that even the death that comes after life is another extension of life. Death is not the end, but a new beginning and birth.

With death, the human body and soul welcome another birth. The body is reborn as countless other lives in the great cycle of nature, and the soul returns to the source whence it came. Energy, the source of life, is not extinguished with death, it simply moves.

The moon waxes and wanes with the size of earth’s shadow, but the moon itself remains a sphere, unchanged. When the darkness of night comes after the setting sun, which had shone its bright light on all things during the day, the sun itself is still shining on the other side of the globe. In the same way, human life is merely marked by the phenomena of life and death.

Just as with life, death is a beautiful gift.  Since we know that our physical life is finite, we struggle to overcome the transience of existence brought by death. We have developed a thirst for eternal truth because death exists, and we have come to know the world of energy and the soul linking life and death. So death is a mechanism for enlightenment and a blessing for the completion of the soul.

We have been given the blessing of life and the blessing of death. We have no reason to worry or be anxious, for we have the void, the eternal world of energy to which we will one day return.

Rooted in the void, a brilliant vision in our hearts, we live resolutely in the eternal now.

~ Ilchi Lee, Calligraphic Meditations


Letting Go

Life is transient.  Everything will come and go.  Love comes and goes and comes again.  Friends who I loved from the bottom of my heart have since left my life.  Lovers.  My mother’s touch.  Her hands.  The smell of her wet soapy skin after she washed off her make-up when I kissed her good night.

Clouds.  The clouds in the Seattle sky, layered gray and white with windows of blue. Strips of golden light peering through.  They come and go as I lie on this park bench.  I want to be like the clouds.  Letting go, letting go.  I want to be like the light rain that kisses my cheeks, like the wind that heals me, like the calm water of Lake Washington that keeps moving. Keeps moving.  They teach me how to let go.   How to Be.

But sometimes, I am like a rock.  My inner teenager grips tight.  She’s MAD. Furious.  At the injustice of it all.  She would like to just sabotage everything.  I look upon her with compassion and love.  I let her do her thing.  She can rip every strand of grass from the ground if she needs to.  I’m not afraid anymore.

There is only one truth.  We are One.  The bright sun rising comforts my heart.  All is well.  Keep flowing, keep flowing.  Life is Transient.  There is only Love.  Only Love to Be.  Even my inner teenager begins to understand it.  With her hands and knees covered in mud – a lifetime of frustration.  It’s gone in an instant when we become Love Itself.

I feel so much gratitude for this magnificent, transient Life.  I will flow with you.  Like the water & the wind.  Thank you for your Grace.



A Great Quote

I stumbled upon a quote today that touched me unexpectedly.  So much so, that I found it to be share-worthy.

I hope that you also enjoy ~


You can’t live a perfect day without doing something for someone who will never be able to repay you.

– John Wooden (UCLA Men’s Basketball Coach. 10x NCAA Champiom)


Sometimes we have to humble ourselves. Sometimes we have to let go, even when it feels so unfair. We have to let go of our pride, let go of our expectations, let go of our wants.  Sometimes, we have to give for giving sake.  Then, we can be connected to a much bigger and greater Spirit within.  We start to feel the peace of it. We can begin to understand the unconditional love and giving of Heaven & Earth.  Even if it’s just a tiny taste.

I am so grateful to have met with this quote today 🙂

We did it!

We finished our first Solar Body online class!  We had 4 lovely participants from all over the country and world 🙂  I would love for them to post their sharings here!  Thank you ~


In James Joyce’s book, Ulysses, there is a sentence that reads “Love loves to love love.”

I don’t actually remember much else about this book, but this sentence stood out so strongly to me.  I wrote it down in my journal and said it to myself over and over again.

Love loves to love love.

Yes, it’s so true.

Love loves to love, period.

Isn’t that the very nature of Love?  Isn’t it the nature of who we are?

For me, as I examine myself, I have spent a lot of time in my life fooling myself.  I thought I was loving, but really I was just loving others in order to get something from them.  Some attention, perhaps?  Some recognition.  Some love back.

Whenever I love like this I am always left feeling empty and unsatisfied.  True love, the love of my true nature, just loves to love.  Without anything in return.  It is unconditional by it’s very nature.

By I have spent a lot of time confusing my ego’s small desires for love.  My small wants and needs.  My insecurities.  My loneliness.  I have followed such things when I thought I was following love.  And it always led to hurt and pain.  No wonder!

Love must start with me.  When I am full and whole within myself, then I am free to truly love.

These days I have begun calling to my Soul.  My Soul who I chose to live for so long ago, are you there?  How are you?  In the grand waves of life, I so often forgot to make time for communicating with my Soul.  My Soul too needs to be picked up and dusted off so that I can reunite with all of it’s purity and magnificence again.  My Soul loves to be seen by me.  I feel that the first and most important relationship that needs tending to in my life, is my relationship with my Soul.

When I feel the great light of my Soul, it’s very easy to Love without need.  Just love for loves sake.

I found a message from my Seu-Seung Nim in his Calligraphic Messages book that speaks exactly of this. It sung to my heart.   The truth of the message resonated with me and led me to go through a time of deep inner reflection about myself and how I have been living.  How I have been loving.  I hope that as you read it, you will also take the time to do the same for yourself.  As our love grows bigger, our light for this world will shine brighter.


The Law of Love

The human Soul grows through love. It’s important to realize that you can create love infinitely instead of wandering in search of someone to love you.

Love grows more greatly when you give it than when you receive it. This amazing fact is the Law of Love.

If you want to live a life full of love, first give it without striving to receive it. If you keep trying to get love, your love will constantly grow smaller.

Because you’re trying to receive love, you will constantly feel sad and inadequate when the love you want doesn’t come. You will become endlessly sadder and lonelier. And you will come to mistakenly believe that you don’t have love yourself.

If you think about it quietly, you’ll realize that you’re happier when you give love than when you receive it.  To use a knife as a metaphor, the one trying to get love holds a knife by the blade, while the one trying to give love holds the knife by the handle.

Those who keep trying to get love are anxious and worried. “What if my love leaves me?” they ask. “What if love never finds me?” On the other hand, people who give love to those around them have confidence.

Everyone has the power fo love. If you want love, you must use love. If there is no one close you can give love to, then love yourself first. Once that love fills you, all you have to do is give it to others. That’s how you begin.

There is love inside us. However, we can’t experience that love unless we use it. We can’t trust it unless we experience it.

Love is like a spring that never runs dry. The more we use it, the more new love arises.

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It’s All In Your Perspective

Recently I received a question from a fellow adoptee.

She asked me, “Do you ever feel like a mistake?”

I think this is a very good question, and I was so happy to receive it from her.

Yes, it would be very easy to feel that way.  I think that deep in my heart I have had to just accept the fact that I actually was a mistake.  I mean, the people who created my physical body did not intend to and when they discovered that they had accidentally created me, it was a big problem for their lives.  That is just the reality.

However, there is always more than one perspective on all things.

Having walked a spiritual path for the last 15 years of my life, I have come to see things a different way.  I have met with my Soul and felt that I have a very determined Soul.  This Soul was coming to the Earth despite all odds!  She had a mission to be here, she grabbed her opportunity, and even with so much opposition she arrived.  She is a real fighter!

So being a “mistake” has given me a certain strength, tenacity and will power.

At the same time, it has of course caused me a great deal of shame – carrying around the feeling of being unwanted with me for the last 38 years.  But I can also say that this shameful feeling has been a driving force to uncover more true peace in my heart.  I think if it had not been for that deep shame, I would not have sought to the bottom of myself to find the place where I am infinitely loved and infinitely embraced.

All strengths come with a weakness, and all weaknesses come with a strength.  It all depends on how we want to look at it.

From another perspective, I was certainly not a mistake to my parents who adopted me.  I was long-awaited, long-dreamed about, long-wished for.  Rather than being their mistake, I was their gift.  That knowing has always been a soft cushion for me to lay my weary head on whenever the inner turmoil became too painful for me.

And most importantly, I am not a mistake to this Earth.  I am one of her children whom she has loved and welcomed into her magnificent bosom.  My teacher often says, “You have come to the Earth because the 21st century Earth desperately needed you.” He goes on to explain that if you choose to live your life this way, then you will know your unconditional worth and value.  You will be inspired to live a life of greatness and leave this world a better place.

It’s all in our perspective.  And our perspective is our choice.  I really want to say to all of the adopted and orphaned children across the world:

Let’s choose hope! We have the Great Life Force within us. We are manifestations of Life Itself.  We are as important and as loved as anyone, and the world needs our bright Souls 🙂 If you find yourself feeling worthless due to the way you came into the world, then create your worth right now!  Humanity is waiting for you.

Please watch this video and listen to the words of the song carefully, and know how precious, powerful and wanted you are!