Bath Contemplation

Today I took the best bath ever!

Truly. It was burning hot ~ just the way I like it. I added some lavender bath salts that were given to me with love. Lights off – only the gray daylight shining in. I cracked the window open, which cooled things down a bit, but I really wanted to hear the sound of the rain. The sound was so healing and so heavenly, and it immediately put my mind at ease. I did some BHP and EFT and gave myself positive messages. I thought to myself at one point that this was literally a $1000 bath 🙂

In this most comfortable setting, I contemplated about choosing, story-making, victim consciousness and master consciousness. I realized that the reason why story-making is a problem, is that we always do it from our victimized consciousness. We always make stories that hurt us and turn us into victims, creating enemies and a lot of blaming, judging, complaining mind. Inside of this mind set, we get ever darker and more negative…heavy…miserable. However! What if we could just turn it around and instead of declaring story-making as a bad thing, we could just use it as a tool from our master consciousness? A story that heals us and empowers us is a like medicine for our brain. If that story helps us to produce positive, happy hormones, then what a great story it is! Since we are the creators of our lives, we are the ones who get to choose it as our new truth, replacing the old poisonous story. Isn’t this basically what positive affirmations are?

In the “I’ve Decided to Live 120 years Book,” Ilchi Lee talks about becoming the ‘victimizer’. Basically, he says that when you feel like a victim you can never solve anything. You can never change the condition of your brain and your stuck in a negative circumstance, wanting/needing somebody or something outside of you to change in order for you to feel better. He says that the only way out of this is to somehow make yourself the ‘victimizer,’ and then at least you can change yourself. You take your power back.

At first this can be hard to understand, but my interpretation of this is that it’s about taking ownership. Like this: If we have a lot of negative thoughts about ourselves, whether it be related to what other people did or didn’t do to us, or our issues with our health condition, success, relationships…whatever….What if we just turn it around and think, “Somehow, I chose this. Somehow, I wanted it to be this way. Even if it’s not conscious, on an unconscious Soul-level, I wanted this situation in my life so that I can grow in some way.” Because after all, every single circumstance gives us the opportunity to be stronger, more self-loving, more wise and more free…doesn’t it? Thus the saying ‘what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.’

Try this: Look at all the things that are bothering you in this very moment, and begin to tell yourself, “I wanted it to be this way. Somehow I chose this. My Soul chose it. It’s not what has happened to me, but it is what I actually wanted to happen” And then feel your body. If you really allow yourself to believe it, you will start to instantly feel lighter and happier. Why? Because you will have shifted your consciousness out of victim-hood where there is absolutely no solution, into a place where you now are actually getting what you want! And we all feel really good when we get what we want 🙂

This is my most productive bath contemplation to date. Liberating your brain from old negative perspectives and stories is worth more than $1000! If you have a chance to try the above exercise and really allow yourself to own everything in your life that you otherwise thought you were a victim of, I’d love to hear how it goes!

And if you have a chance to take a cozy enlightening bath ~ I highly recommend it!

Never Give Up

As I do my practice and live my life, I can see that all of the spiritual principles that I have been learning and trying to apply over the last 19 years are slowly integrating. So, I guess the message is to never give up. It’s a message that we transform slowly over long periods of time, incrementally. This requires a great deal of devotion, sincerity, patience and self-forgiveness.

I think that I always wished in my heart that suddenly one day…boom! I would be fully awake. I think it is probably that wish that left me so frustrated and disappointed with myself so many times. I am learning through living that if we are able to take a good look at all of the desires and expectations that our ego has put onto life, and accept that it was just our own egoic lens that was causing so much suffering, and that life is what it is and that’s ok, that a deeper peace is accessible. And then the power to truly make conscious choices arises. But when we continuously live as the victim of each circumstance, relationship, feeling because things are not working out the way we wanted them to….we are prey to our endless thoughts, emotions and desires and we are powerless.

I have heard Ilchi Lee say that “suddenly one day” comes after a long period of effort and devotion. What I take from that perspective is that there is no “suddenly one day.” Everything in this universe is a fair trade, what we put in is what we get out. Therefore, what is truly important is our devotion. Our endless attention to our growth and transformation, and our willingness to share and apply each truth that blossoms along the way – this is the beauty of the journey. Then, just like the mountain that is made up of many grains of sand, “one day” something great will be born out of our efforts.

Today’s post is one of encouragement. Never give up. Bloom the beautiful flower of your heart.